Poise — 自負

eating alone

I hate eating out alone.

First, I don’t know where to sit. Away from people? Close to other loners?

Once I do sit down and start to eat, I am uncomfortable not knowing where to look — outside through the window, straight ahead, down at food, or pretend to check messages on the phone.

If I catch somebody looking at me, what would I do? Smile? Wave? Nod?

I feel that people with companions are feeling sorry for me eating by myself. I do feel miserable not having anybody to talk to or to share.

I wish I were a mature, independent and confident woman.

eating alone window #2美味しい物を食べたい。

一人で食事する事自体、味気ない。

どんなによくできた物が出てきても、

一緒に誰かと楽しく食べられなければ、

物足りない。

目のやり場に困ったり、

一人で満悦するのを恥ずかしく思ったりして、

なかなか寛げない。

一人で、堂々と食堂に入って、躊躇なく欲しい物を注文し、

一人で心から楽しみながら食事ができるような、

そんな強い人間になりたい。

 

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