now you see it, now you don’t

eigengrau For One Word Photo Challenge: Eigengrau    tumblr_mo5z8hsjwS1su85gro1_r2_500



I am not one of those who can burst their anger. Mine stays inside me, boils and lingers. If you were the one who caused it, you would get the silent treatment. My husband did when he was with me. A lot.

At the group grief counseling that I attended, many expressed their anger towards their family members, friends, organizations and the deceased. I told them that I didn’t feel angry, never felt like I had to punch pillows. The counselor, then, pointed out that sarcasm is a sign of anger. Well, in that case, I had plenty of anger in me.

You might not see my anger on the surface. But, please be aware of the steam seeping out of my ear. I might be fuming inside.

 In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Mad as a Hatter.”
“Tell us about a time when you flew into a rage. What is it that made you so incredibly angry?”


6 thoughts on “now you see it, now you don’t

  1. If ever you are angry with me, I would want to know so I can fix whatever I did that hurt you. Unresolved anger between friends always destroys the friendship. Please find a way to say what went wrong.

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  2. At the risk of entering a minefield of ethnic stereotype, maybe, just maybe, I was wondering if such pent-up kinda anger is part and parcel of many Japanese women’s psychological makeup, which must have been socially reinforced for some centuries during the pre-World War II eras (although I admit there are a lot of assertive, or even aggressive Japanese ladies out there). My better half is just like nekurumi-san. Every time I tripped her anger switch, all I could get from her is just curt responses and nods for a few days on end.
    Lingo-Field (Sendai, Miyagi, Japan)

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  3. You’ve shared so much of yourself here and I appreciate your openness and honesty. I know how it is to hold everything in and I hope you are doing okay as you work through everything. Your images are very somber. I believe they represent the color and your post very well. Thank you for sharing.

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