I don’t know if I ever hankered after anything. I am passive that way. Growing up, I was aware of the fact that my parents weren’t wealthy and of what they could afford and didn’t ask for things. To this day, I revere children who pout and cry to convey their desire for something at stores.
One thing that I wished I had but didn’t was confidence. I did okay at school and with friends but lacked enough confidence to aim high or overachieve. “I didn’t know I could do that!” or “I did it!” weren’t in my vocabulary. I looked at those who, with their oblivion, succeeded and envied. I was too conscientious and timid. I still am and wonder what I have missed.
My brother wanted whatever I got for birthday and holidays – a pink cuddly toy horse, a red vinyl purse and a polka dotted ribbon. And, I now crave for sweets that I used to have but can’t.
We always want something we don’t or can’t have, I suppose.
In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Out of Your Reach.”
“Was there a toy or thing you always wanted as a child, during the holidays or on your birthday, but never received? Tell us about it.”