I went to a lunch seminar, which my brokerage hosted.
I was the only single attendee. Others all came in pairs.
I used to be one of a pair. I now enter a place on my own and leave alone, and it does take some getting used to.
People don’t exactly know how to deal with a single person at gatherings either. They assume I have someone to talk to and consult with, leave me and don’t include me in their affairs.
I feel uncomfortable, unwanted, excluded and alone.
Holidays are approaching fast, and I’m hoping not to get invited to parties. Though I know I should go out and socialize, it is not easy for me to entertain myself in the crowd. Before I go in, I usually stop in front of the door and look in to see if I know someone or how busy people are. I then wonder if they even notice that I am here, outside.
In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt; “The Outsiders“
“Tell us about the experience of being outside, looking in — however you’d like to interpret that.”