I think of happiness. What is it? Someone said that you need three things to be happy; something to do, someone to love and something to hope for.
I think of what ifs. What if my husband hadn’t died? He would be staying home with the dogs while I would go to work, and I would have something to do and would have him and the dogs to love. What if I didn’t have my dogs? I would have a job that pays well, I would meet people, I would go to places, I would see friends and families. I wouldn’t have them to love, though.
I think of the reality. My reality. I have no life, nothing to do and two dogs that I love dearly. And, I hope for hope.
I guess I am relatively happy.