You once dreamed of reaching for the stars.Standing on tiptoe, precariously,you looked up at the cloudy sky and searched.You’ve since traveled, seen, and heard.Or so you’re convinced.Have you dreamed lately? 星を見たいけど、この狭い場所からは、見上げても曇った空の向こうはわからない。そう思った日。あれから、できる範囲で、出かけて、見て、聞いた…つもりになっているけど、星は見えたかい？ For What Do You See #65. Continue reading dear me
Pandemic or not,Social distancing and masksProtect me from hurt 引きこもり？いえ、こたつ守もりコロナ禍に Continue reading ppe
Nobody talks at dinner; their heads are down, staring at devices in their hands. The other hands hold utensils, and they work in motion from the plates to the mouths, making occasional noises. I bring a spoonful of the tomato bisque to my lips, “I miss the old times,” muttering under my breath. All heads at the table turn in my direction. I quickly cover … Continue reading order
Lost and broken I was, you wondered beside me, letting me walk at my own pace, “Why does anyone want to grow up?” 壊れそうで、潰れそうだったあたしと一緒に歩いてくれた。大人になりたくないと悩んでいたあたしに、子供のままでいようと手を差し伸べてくれた。 Continue reading forevermore
Sleepless nights, I dream I am walking through a jungle: grass and mud crushing underneath my feet, my feeble steps leaving an impalpable path behind. Starless nights, I see only a shadow. Of me, a widow crowned with nothing but pretension, wailing silently, the jungle swaying around me. Restless nights, I sleep soundly. The jungle and anguish are my companions, confidantes. Licking the wounds that … Continue reading good night and sweet dreams
My head is foggy, heart slow. Darkness closes in, and silence is deafening. I close my eyes, and numbness takes over. 簡単だった。いろんな声を無視できるようになったら。特に自分の。 Continue reading pressure
“Donate those. Throw that away.” She categorizes the items that her daughter brings from the closet one by one. “You sure you wanna do this now?” “Yes. Let’s continue, shall we?” Her daughter sighs and picks the next item. “Ah, the pink dress…” Her pale, thin face softens. “I wore that for the event… How many years ago?” Her daughter says nothing. “I thought I … Continue reading her hero
I thought I could do it alone. やっぱ、きついよ。ひとりは。 Continue reading dropout
What am I doing with my life? 何やってるんだろう、あたし。 Continue reading perpetual nagging
She stirs the pot, scrunches her nose at the smell of garlic and herbs, and mops the sweat dripping down her neck. A sudden clinking sound of bottles behind startles her, but she keeps her eyes on the pot. Her hands shake a little, more sweat breaks out. The braids of her hair tremble. The clinking bottles move away, out of the kitchen, down the … Continue reading what’s cooking
