“And all I lov’d, I lov’d alone.” ~ Edgar Allan Poe, Alone I want beautiful words to continue tugging at my heart, always. きちんと生きているのが嫌になり、今はちょっとだけふざけて生きています。独りで。  


  I had a visitor. A male visitor. Unannounced. I was in the shower, and when I heard my dogs barking, I thought they were barking at the pig that I had seen earlier. When I came out, though, I heard “Hello” in a male voice and got startled. I was naked and felt extra…

reflection and defiance

  I think we should tiptoe around people, presume our paradigm is not others’ sets of values. 自分の居場所、見えてますか。  

why i write

  I have stories in me. Yes, I do. I just don’t have THE story. わかったふりをしてみんなと同じタイミングで笑ったりして、郷に入っても従えなくて、忍んでいる感じ。  

one constant

  “When do you stop missing him?” “Never.”   For The Daily Post’s daily prompt, Constant.    

my Valentine

  I walked into the restaurant. The staff whisked by me. I found my friends waving. “Busy, this place,” I took my seat. “It’s Valentine’s Day,” they chuckled. Couples occupied other tables. We ordered our food and exchanged our Valentine’s gifts. “We were over there. A year ago.” I turned to where my friend was…

picture perfect

We sometimes manipulate our fear into believing in the intangible. We believe or want to believe, whether for fear of being alone or unsafe, that the deceased loved ones are watching over us. On the street, however, when we meet people who hear voices and see images that we don’t discern, we tend to feel…

absence of sound

Oh, those beautiful words that I cannot pronounce. Don’t leave me speechless.   For The Daily Post’s weekly photo challenge, Silence.    

happy is as happy does

  She was pretty and smart, kind, soft-spoken and always smiling. Everyone liked her. After she killed herself, jumping off the building near her house, we, her classmates from high school, gathered at the entrance to the building. We all looked up, where she stood by herself a few days before, and wandered in our…


  I saw a butterfly. I saw him twice. He came back to make sure that I was indeed Happy. 「元気にやってる?」 そう言って、 君はまたあらわれた。  

up, up and up

I am, currently, relaxed about having no direction. “Is this it?” evolved to “This isn’t it!” then, eventually grew into “Oh, well.” We are expected to aim high, thrive. The higher you get, though, the windier it gets. I wouldn’t know, but so it seems. Oh, well.   For The Daily Post’s weekly photo challenge,…

new year’s resolutions

  This year’s going to be different. … hope, faith, certainty …   I’m going to change. … aspiration, desperation, inspiration …   All the good things are going to happen. … anticipation, expectation, imagination …   It’ll start tomorrow. … force, plight, dignity …     今年もよろしくお願いいたします。