if you were here

  You would push me to keep going. You would assure me that I have “it,” That I have what it takes to make it. You would tell me I am doing What I’m meant to do, To be who I am, and to be true. You would…   綺麗な人が輝いて見えて、いいなと思う。ヒーローは偉いと感動するし、他人に甘えるのが上手な人は羨ましい。でも、どうして私にはできないんだろうと、考えない。ああ、やっぱりと、納得するだけ。     Continue reading if you were here

beauty and the beast

  She survived the darkness by hiding and believing that she was not good enough and ignored the sound. One day, a carriage stopped and waited patiently outside, and she lifted her head, mustering her courage, listened, and stood up on her feet. She took a step and another, then another, until she was in the sunlight, and onto the carriage, ushered by her own … Continue reading beauty and the beast

another day in paradise

  I am definitely feeling weird, confused. Not the same way I felt when I quit my job and became uninvolved, but something unsettling is stalking inside me. In the head, squiggly black lines scratch everywhere, bumping into each other, and make me get up and pace. My stomach feels nauseous, gooey stuff chugging. The hands itch, and legs jiggly. I am anxious. My dogs … Continue reading another day in paradise


  I think because I have a conscious mind. I laugh because my heart is blissfully ignorant. And, I cry because I know.     優越感から優しくなれることもあれば、劣等感が自分を押す力になるときもある。 辛い思いをしたり悲しい経験をするのは私一人ではないのだからと自分にハッパをかけることはあっても、悲しんでいる人や辛い道を歩んでいる人に向かって私もやったんだからと上から目線になったりせず、その厳しさや苦しみがわかるゆえ、心から寄り添える人間になりたい。   Continue reading zen