I have to kill her, or she would kill me.At first, when she criticized the way I looked, I tried to ignore her. Then, she started accusing me of doing wrong. Lectured that I should act more like others. Preaching to be a good daughter, wife, and mother. Told me that I would be a failure. It bothered me, hurt me, but I refused to … Continue reading self-defense
I have no story to tell at the moment; too many characters have died already, and the protagonist cannot find a goal to achieve. 『私の三不作』まず、不細工。元々の容姿もあるが、きれいにしようともしない。次に不精。やらなきゃならないことがない時が一番しあわせ。そして、不器用。思い描いていたものとは違う結果になることが多い。 Continue reading plain truth
I may be able to do a lot more by myself than I used to be.I am older and, perhaps, wiser; my skin much darker and thicker. I may be able to laugh a little more than I once was.There are times I almost think I could dream again. I may not be the person I was,but I still miss you the same. 生きたいとは思わない。死にたいとも思わない。誰かのために生きなきゃ、とは思うけど。 Continue reading nine years later II
Still standing and taking on whatever may come 今年は平井大さんの『小さな丘の木の下で』を聴いてるよ Continue reading nine years later
Have you ever missed someone badly? Like you miss them so much that your knees buckle, and you fall over? 頑張れ、とはっぱかけるよりも、頑張ったね、と話を聴ける人間でありたい。 Continue reading for R
It has been raining a lot. 雨が… 止まない。 Continue reading rains
The wooden steps to the back porch are rotten and wobbly. The rain gutters that hang askew drip every time it rains. The roof with rusted nails is perched on the flimsy eaves and will fly off sooner or later. I don’t fix them. Instead, just wait until either the house or I finally give out. I could sell this place and make them somebody … Continue reading pressing matters
It rejects me: who I am and what I am.It hits me, kicks me, and shoves me hard.But, I stand on my two feet, defying my existence and surrendering to invisibility and insignificance. アタシさえいなければ。ボクなんていなくても。 Continue reading the world without me
You once dreamed of reaching for the stars.Standing on tiptoe, precariously,you looked up at the cloudy sky and searched.You’ve since traveled, seen, and heard.Or so you’re convinced.Have you dreamed lately? 星を見たいけど、この狭い場所からは、見上げても曇った空の向こうはわからない。そう思った日。あれから、できる範囲で、出かけて、見て、聞いた…つもりになっているけど、星は見えたかい？ For What Do You See #65. Continue reading dear me
Pandemic or not,Social distancing and masksProtect me from hurt 引きこもり？いえ、こたつ守もりコロナ禍に Continue reading ppe
