for R
Have you ever missed someone badly? Like you miss them so much that your knees buckle, and you fall over? 頑張れ、とはっぱかけるよりも、頑張ったね、と話を聴ける人間でありたい。 Continue reading for R
Category: blah blah blah — 独り言
rains
It has been raining a lot. 雨が… 止まない。 Continue reading rains
pressing matters
The wooden steps to the back porch are rotten and wobbly. The rain gutters that hang askew drip every time it rains. The roof with rusted nails is perched on the flimsy eaves and will fly off sooner or later. I don’t fix them. Instead, just wait until either the house or I finally give out. I could sell this place and make them somebody … Continue reading pressing matters
the world without me
It rejects me: who I am and what I am.It hits me, kicks me, and shoves me hard.But, I stand on my two feet, defying my existence and surrendering to invisibility and insignificance. アタシさえいなければ。ボクなんていなくても。 Continue reading the world without me
dear me
You once dreamed of reaching for the stars.Standing on tiptoe, precariously,you looked up at the cloudy sky and searched.You’ve since traveled, seen, and heard.Or so you’re convinced.Have you dreamed lately? 星を見たいけど、この狭い場所からは、見上げても曇った空の向こうはわからない。そう思った日。あれから、できる範囲で、出かけて、見て、聞いた…つもりになっているけど、星は見えたかい？ For What Do You See #65. Continue reading dear me
ppe
Pandemic or not,Social distancing and masksProtect me from hurt 引きこもり？いえ、こたつ守もりコロナ禍に Continue reading ppe
forevermore
Lost and broken I was, you wondered beside me, letting me walk at my own pace, “Why does anyone want to grow up?” 壊れそうで、潰れそうだったあたしと一緒に歩いてくれた。大人になりたくないと悩んでいたあたしに、子供のままでいようと手を差し伸べてくれた。 Continue reading forevermore
good night and sweet dreams
Sleepless nights, I dream I am walking through a jungle: grass and mud crushing underneath my feet, my feeble steps leaving an impalpable path behind. Starless nights, I see only a shadow. Of me, a widow crowned with nothing but pretension, wailing silently, the jungle swaying around me. Restless nights, I sleep soundly. The jungle and anguish are my companions, confidantes. Licking the wounds that … Continue reading good night and sweet dreams
pressure
My head is foggy, heart slow. Darkness closes in, and silence is deafening. I close my eyes, and numbness takes over. 簡単だった。いろんな声を無視できるようになったら。特に自分の。 Continue reading pressure
dropout
I thought I could do it alone. やっぱ、きついよ。ひとりは。 Continue reading dropout
