What am I doing with my life? 何やってるんだろう、あたし。 Continue reading perpetual nagging
It bloomed again this year. Brightening the dim three weeks between two anniversaries: the day you died and your birthday. また今年も咲いたよ。 Continue reading between two anniversaries
Alternating between invincibility and fear. 手枷足枷を振り落とそうと足掻きながら生きている感じ。 他の人のようにならなきゃと必死だった。自分を大切に産んで育ててくれた親でさえも、他の人のやるようにやりなさいと言った。学校でもあまり目立たないように、真面目すぎず適当に面白い友達でいた。会社では、与えられた仕事をこなし、面倒な行事にも顔を出した。自分が誰だか分からなくなった。 Continue reading current state
I’m supposed to be okay. Right? It’s been years. Loneliness and I-wishes, I shouldn’t be overwhelmed by them. Right? また今年も会えなかったね。 Continue reading tanabata
Sometimes, we believe we are invincible and righteous at the same time. We step on other human beings in order to stand tall.
Our economy is fueled by inequity. We become the oppressed and bullies and are rewarded by meager paychecks.
By looking away and walking away, saying that it’s not me, that I don’t do it, we protect our loved ones and our lives in make-believe safety and remain outsiders.
I ought to stop blaming my pathetic life on the values of others and social norms. 世間体だとか、周りからこう言われるからとか、他人のせいにするのはやめようと思った。 Continue reading embracing
“She thinks she can fly.” “Go for it.” Continue reading heeding
Sparkles on foliage after the morning rain And the aroma of wet grass flowing. I look into the dogs’ bright eyes, their heads tilting. The darkness at night, Grief and suffering of people, And shadows in my head wailing. I scratch the dogs’ bellies nearby, their paws on me. A glimpse of hope and dreams, Maybe, belongs to the future. Lessons learned … Continue reading dark
I don’t know… I need to write something. Draw. Or whatever. Express myself. But why? To be understood? I have nothing. Am I a narcissist? I might be… This isn’t good. No wonder I’m alone. Nobody likes me. What am I gonna do? Hmm… Drink more. Until I can’t hear me think. Yeah, that’s it. For Discover Prompts, Day 28: Focus. Continue reading rambling