current state

Alternating between invincibility and fear. 手枷足枷を振り落とそうと足掻きながら生きている感じ。 他の人のようにならなきゃと必死だった。自分を大切に産んで育ててくれた親でさえも、他の人のやるようにやりなさいと言った。学校でもあまり目立たないように、真面目すぎず適当に面白い友達でいた。会社では、与えられた仕事をこなし、面倒な行事にも顔を出した。自分が誰だか分からなくなった。 Continue reading current state

it’s not me

Sometimes, we believe we are invincible and righteous at the same time. We step on other human beings in order to stand tall.

Our economy is fueled by inequity. We become the oppressed and bullies and are rewarded by meager paychecks.

By looking away and walking away, saying that it’s not me, that I don’t do it, we protect our loved ones and our lives in make-believe safety and remain outsiders.

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dark

  Sparkles on foliage after the morning rain And the aroma of wet grass flowing. I look into the dogs’ bright eyes, their heads tilting.   The darkness at night, Grief and suffering of people, And shadows in my head wailing. I scratch the dogs’ bellies nearby, their paws on me.   A glimpse of hope and dreams, Maybe, belongs to the future. Lessons learned … Continue reading dark