“And all I lov’d, I lov’d alone.” ~ Edgar Allan Poe, Alone I want beautiful words to continue tugging at my heart, always. きちんと生きているのが嫌になり、今はちょっとだけふざけて生きています。独りで。  

death and a girl

    I have been watching her for a while now. I watch and follow her, while she ponders, talks, reads, and writes. I don’t want her to see me. I’m afraid she wouldn’t like me. I would scare her, upset her. She is so sensitive and delicate. Captivating, indeed. I wish I could just…

reflection and defiance

  I think we should tiptoe around people, presume our paradigm is not others’ sets of values. 自分の居場所、見えてますか。  

why i write

  I have stories in me. Yes, I do. I just don’t have THE story. わかったふりをしてみんなと同じタイミングで笑ったりして、郷に入っても従えなくて、忍んでいる感じ。  

one constant

  “When do you stop missing him?” “Never.”   For The Daily Post’s daily prompt, Constant.    

happy is as happy does

  She was pretty and smart, kind, soft-spoken and always smiling. Everyone liked her. After she killed herself, jumping off the building near her house, we, her classmates from high school, gathered at the entrance to the building. We all looked up, where she stood by herself a few days before, and wandered in our…


  I saw a butterfly. I saw him twice. He came back to make sure that I was indeed Happy. 「元気にやってる?」 そう言って、 君はまたあらわれた。  

pursuit of ever-elusive happiness

  I’m glad I was born. When I was born, people around me were happy to have me. I am fortunate, and it humbles me. My parents never had lots of money, and we considered getting a cake on our birthday was special. It was my dad’s job to get one on his way back…

be good

  If you encounter an obstacle, you might get motivated to pick up and fight. If you have nothing to push against, no resistance, then, you could fall.     背負っているものが大きすぎて、少しの時間、現実と、思い出とか夢の間をフラフラする。その時だけは、あまり考えずに。