for R
Have you ever missed someone badly? Like you miss them so much that your knees buckle, and you fall over? 頑張れ、とはっぱかけるよりも、頑張ったね、と話を聴ける人間でありたい。 Continue reading for R
Tag: alone
rains
It has been raining a lot. 雨が… 止まない。 Continue reading rains
the world without me
It rejects me: who I am and what I am.It hits me, kicks me, and shoves me hard.But, I stand on my two feet, defying my existence and surrendering to invisibility and insignificance. アタシさえいなければ。ボクなんていなくても。 Continue reading the world without me
ppe
Pandemic or not,Social distancing and masksProtect me from hurt 引きこもり？いえ、こたつ守もりコロナ禍に Continue reading ppe
pressure
My head is foggy, heart slow. Darkness closes in, and silence is deafening. I close my eyes, and numbness takes over. 簡単だった。いろんな声を無視できるようになったら。特に自分の。 Continue reading pressure
dropout
I thought I could do it alone. やっぱ、きついよ。ひとりは。 Continue reading dropout
current state
Alternating between invincibility and fear. 手枷足枷を振り落とそうと足掻きながら生きている感じ。 他の人のようにならなきゃと必死だった。自分を大切に産んで育ててくれた親でさえも、他の人のやるようにやりなさいと言った。学校でもあまり目立たないように、真面目すぎず適当に面白い友達でいた。会社では、与えられた仕事をこなし、面倒な行事にも顔を出した。自分が誰だか分からなくなった。 Continue reading current state
dark
Sparkles on foliage after the morning rain And the aroma of wet grass flowing. I look into the dogs’ bright eyes, their heads tilting. The darkness at night, Grief and suffering of people, And shadows in my head wailing. I scratch the dogs’ bellies nearby, their paws on me. A glimpse of hope and dreams, Maybe, belongs to the future. Lessons learned … Continue reading dark
stuck
She hears a muffled hum. A fly? A bee? Trapped somewhere in the room? She looks around, trying to locate the source of the murmur in her bleary vision. The sound intensifies, reverberating throughout the room. She grabs the arms of the chair, bracing to get up. After several failed attempts to stand on her feet, she plunks herself back down. The incessant noise … Continue reading stuck
rambling
I don’t know… I need to write something. Draw. Or whatever. Express myself. But why? To be understood? I have nothing. Am I a narcissist? I might be… This isn’t good. No wonder I’m alone. Nobody likes me. What am I gonna do? Hmm… Drink more. Until I can’t hear me think. Yeah, that’s it. For Discover Prompts, Day 28: Focus. Continue reading rambling
