good night and sweet dreams

Sleepless nights, I dream I am walking through a jungle: grass and mud crushing underneath my feet, my feeble steps leaving an impalpable path behind. Starless nights, I see only a shadow. Of me, a widow crowned with nothing but pretension, wailing silently, the jungle swaying around me. Restless nights, I sleep soundly. The jungle and anguish are my companions, confidantes. Licking the wounds that … Continue reading good night and sweet dreams

current state

Alternating between invincibility and fear. 手枷足枷を振り落とそうと足掻きながら生きている感じ。 他の人のようにならなきゃと必死だった。自分を大切に産んで育ててくれた親でさえも、他の人のやるようにやりなさいと言った。学校でもあまり目立たないように、真面目すぎず適当に面白い友達でいた。会社では、与えられた仕事をこなし、面倒な行事にも顔を出した。自分が誰だか分からなくなった。 Continue reading current state

keeping social distance

  Squawking and banging came from outside. I walked to the back porch to investigate. A pair of chickens was scoping out in the carport. I grabbed a broom and chased them with it, and they scampered away, flapping frantically. It isn’t my first choice to live in the jungle, but I do. And, animals, which humans have brought from somewhere and let go wild … Continue reading keeping social distance