another day in paradise

  I am definitely feeling weird, confused. Not the same way I felt when I quit my job and became uninvolved, but something unsettling is stalking inside me. In the head, squiggly black lines scratch everywhere, bumping into each other, and make me get up and pace. My stomach feels nauseous, gooey stuff chugging. The hands itch, and legs jiggly. I am anxious. My dogs … Continue reading another day in paradise


  I think because I have a conscious mind. I laugh because my heart is blissfully ignorant. And, I cry because I know.     優越感から優しくなれることもあれば、劣等感が自分を押す力になるときもある。 辛い思いをしたり悲しい経験をするのは私一人ではないのだからと自分にハッパをかけることはあっても、悲しんでいる人や辛い道を歩んでいる人に向かって私もやったんだからと上から目線になったりせず、その厳しさや苦しみがわかるゆえ、心から寄り添える人間になりたい。   Continue reading zen


  The remanence of equatorial daylight struggled under the surging black clouds. Tweeting birds fused with misty bamboo trees in silhouette. A current of damp wind flowed over the tea bushes and flipped the last page of the book on her lap. Completely unplugged at a lavish eco-lodge for a week, she felt herself rebooting. Soon she’d be back to the world compressed into the … Continue reading disconnected

fluent in silence

“The broken are the more evolved.” ~ M. Night Shyamalan   “Oh, no. That coupon’s only good for regular white milk, not for low-fat.” “Oh, okay…” “Do you still want this?” The cashier waved the carton of 2% low-fat milk. “Yes…” I nodded. The rest of the merchandise was quickly scanned. “It’ll be $48.67.” I swiped my card, which I had been holding in my … Continue reading fluent in silence