longing
I didn’t die when he died. Parts of me, though, stopped living nonetheless. And, somewhere inside me, still, curiosity about life yearns to be out. For What Do You See #237 – 06 May, 2024 Continue reading longing
taking risks with no regrets
When is the last time you took a risk? How did it work out? Once you’re young and vibrant. Then, before long, you turn into your mother, aunts, and grandmother. I have of no avail tried to follow them and instead taken the path with none set eyes on. I am not alone, for there are others who have chosen unpopular paths, and have no … Continue reading taking risks with no regrets
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Jot down the first thing that comes to your mind. Continue reading …
lost
Where is it? I put it right here. I saw it yesterday. Did someone take it? Did someone enter my room? No. I don’t think so. I’ve been home. For days. I never go out. No wonder I can’t sleep at night. I should go out and walk. It’s nice out today. What day is it today? Agh, I can’t remember. Never mind. Anyway … … Continue reading lost
and…
I turn on the TV, place her in front of it, and hide in my room with the door ajar, feeling guilty. The constant search for things that no longer exist and incoherent stories that she believes are true have taken over our shared memories, and conversation has become impossible. Still, I should at least sit by her, talk and listen. I know. Have some … Continue reading and…
freedom
I first saw the pale ceiling. My head was foggy, then scattered. Though I could open my eyes, the rest of my body remained leaden and heavy. The arms lay beside the torso; the legs stretched, slightly touching each other, and I couldn’t fidget my fingers or toes. Oh good, I thought, I’m finally dead. The room was dark with grayish-blue walls. One with a … Continue reading freedom
inert
You get some great, amazingly fantastic news. What’s the first thing you do? Continue reading inert
i’m most scared of…
What’s the thing you’re most scared to do? What would it take to get you to do it? I’m scared of getting old, and it wouldn’t take much to get there. I just have to do nothing. 「老いは外から言われること。他人との比較でしか生まれない」と養老孟司さんはおっしゃっていたけれど、全くその通りだと思う。昔は、歳なんてみんな取るんだからと開き直っていたが、今、周りを見て、恐怖しかない。物事や状況を把握、管理できなくなること。筋力の低下。迷惑かけたくないと望んでいても、そうしてしまっていることにさえ気がつかなくなる。ただただ、怖い。 Continue reading i’m most scared of…
the thing I enjoy…
What do you enjoy doing most in your leisure time? Doing nothing. Continue reading the thing I enjoy…
things i do…
List five things you do for fun. Do nothing. Do nothing. Do nothing. Do nothing. And do nothing. Continue reading things i do…
What does nelkumi think? 